We've had quite a busy time here in my little world lately. We've had more snow.
I broke my little toe after pretty much freezing it shoveling and then coming
inside and hitting it on the cabinet as I was walking by. Did you know that last
week 49 out of 50 states had snow!?! Work has been very busy with lots of heavy
care patients resulting in me working harder than I want to and with the bad roads
taking longer to get home which leads to less sleep making me more tired.
My Aunt is ill again and I'm so very worried. A coworker took ill suddenly, spent
a week on a ventilator and then died at the very young age of 59. I'm stressed,
anxious, worn out and just plain exhausted! Needless to say, haven't had time to
update but I did receive the following message in an email and really felt like it was something I needed to hear. So since I liked it, I wanted to share it
with you. I've copied it word for word, not sure who wrote it so can't give them
credit but will say thanks to my friend Paula for sending it to me.
How Do I know? .
I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I think I finally dozed off around 1 a.m. after wrestling
with a bout of anxiety over my lack of middle-aged accomplishments and my overabundance
of failures. I thought of finances and the future and the fleeting aspects of life all in comparison
to what I have had, have now, and will or will not have in the future.
It was rather depressing and exhausting.
After a sleep deprived night, I woke up early this morning to a clean snow on the ground;
the symbolism of purity, freshness and peace. I love getting up early when it snows. I like to see
the snowfall completely undisturbed before footprints, dog pee, and car tires mess it all up.
But it was not the thought of snow that woke me up this morning before daylight. It was the sound
of birds. The only time I hear birds singing on a winter morning is after a fresh snowfall. Why? Because they are hungry. Actually they are starving to death. And since I have a large
outside my kitchen window that stays full all winter, they depend on that seed for
survival, especially when the temperature drops below zero and the snow covers the ground. While the cry of hungry birds woke me and the pristine fresh snow enticed me, neither was
enough to get my tired and sleepy body out of bed after a rather restless night. It was cold
outside, my bed was warm, I was finally getting drowsy and I wanted to sleep till 10. Then I heard it...a small voice from the darkness of my bedroom, much like the voice of an angel.
At first it sounded like a dream, but then it became real and present in the room with me,
“The bird feeder is empty....the birds are hungry...they need some seed.”
I imagine it was similar to the still small voice that Elijah heard on Mount Horeb, after the whirlwind,
fire and earthquake…maybe even a little softer, but nonetheless just as convincing.
As I opened my foggy eyes I caught a fleeting glimpse of the angel complete in soft flowing gown
and glowing face. It was my four year old daughter, Hope.
“Daddy, the birds are hungry. They are tweeting outside my window and I cannot sleep. You need to fill up the bird feeder.”
I rose from my bed as if summoned by the Lord Himself, put on my sweatshirt and hiking boots,
went to the garage, got the ladder and the bag of seed and went outside in the snow to fill the
I poured the seed in, spilling some onto the untouched snow intentionally for the ground feeders,
and I thought to myself, “These birds really depend on this seed to live. Without it many of them
would perish in the cold snow and instead of waking up to the beauty of a pristine, undisturbed
snowfall, I would have woke to a cold, white blanket dotted with tiny little feathered corpses.”
As I finished pouring the bird buffet, I could hear the sound of thanksgiving whistling from the
leafless trees all around the perimeter of my yard. “Your welcome,” I said out loud, rather
sarcastically, hoping my neighbors didn't see me in my underwear and hiking boots standing
in the snow talking to birds.
I put the ladder and the seed back in the garage, knocked the snow off my boots, fixed me
some coffee and grabbed my Bible. The little messenger angel had already gone back to her
heavenly abode and, except for the bird choir worshiping at my kitchen window,
all was peaceful in my warm house. A comfortable chair embraced my sore back and I placed my feet by the fire still feeling the
weary effects of last nights sleep-wrestling tournament.. I then turned to Matthew chapter 6
and read these words,
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink,
nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than
clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet
your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
And thus my paraphrase, “Stop worrying and losing sleep over stuff you have no control over. I have bigger plans for you
than what you could ever imagine. Want proof? I sent a bird to your daughter’s window with a
message. I sent your daughter to your bedside with a revelation. I sent you to the bird feeder,
in your underwear, in the freezing snow, with life-giving sustenance all for a small flock of
feathered Parus Carolinensis (scientific name for the particularly small birds at my feeder).
I love you more than I love these birds and will take care of you accordingly. Got it?”
Got it Lord, I think I’ll go back to sleep now.
"Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls. . . Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills." --HAB 3:17-19